Old scars that have healed but still sting and bother us on a daily basis in one form or the other. That's what I live with everyday and many do too. How do you handle and face them it's up to each individual. For me is about how far I allow it to bring me down and take control. Through the years I've learn how to manage it to the best of my ability. I must admit there is days were it does trump me and well that's fine too. What matters is that I put a stop to it and not let it run long and take over. I face depression, anxiety and anger they are my three little evil friends. I use to take medication, tried many of them and hated the way they made me feel empty and dead. I prefer to feel something it reminds me that I'm alive and survived. Instead on relying on medication I found new ways to manage my evil friends. One was running and not meaning leaving my husband and kids behind and disappearing I mean (cardio) lol yeah might not sound like the most appealing thing to do. But let me tell you it makes me feel so good and helps me manage the 3 evils. In no way I'm perfect no one is but we all can better each day. Each one of the 3 have their own moment there's days were I'm just depressed and sad feeling hopeless and drained. Others I have a horrible anxiety I feel trapped within myself and my chest feels heavy. Then there's anger and boy do I hate this one because I can be a total bitch to the ones I love and that's bad. I dislike it so much specially if is me snapping at my kids screaming or constantly being bossy and pushy. I have cried many times and felt so disappointed of myself when I loose control and let my anger take over. You might ask well where does all this old scars come from... One simple answer yet so complicated "Sexual abuse as a child by a very close family member".  It's still hard to even type yet alone say it aloud but I have been able to do so and it's freeing. But to all of us out there that have been through it remember that you are not alone. And being the victim does not mean you have to play the role forever there's the survivor title that represents us more accurately. I can only share so much but I know that if I can help anyone out there in any way is all that matters.